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Life thoughts: My year in a nutshell

I just want to use this post to thank God for all the things that he has done and taught me this year also as I look forward for the coming new year. I’m gonna try to attempt to do a monthly looking back starting

January
-started the year with a very great project with a jazz pianist
-I had dengue that month til February
-was also mentally and spiritually preparing for the launch of our church album for February

February
-was still recovering from dengue
-dengue left me with Vertigo which was so dreadful for me. The 2 sundays after i got home from the hospital was very unforgettable because i passed out those 2 sundays after morning rehearsals for church.
-a big blessing would be the launch of the album which i produced. Everyone loved it and the Music during the launch was the best or church music ministry has done so far

March
March to April were the most painful months i have had this year. I rejected from having a scholarship that would allow me to have my graduate studies in composition in Germany. I was given full assurance that i would have it so i actually never planned for anything else when i started the year. It was indeed painful but God has other plans that i did not know during that point. I felt like my whole world shattered in front of me since almost everyone was expecting that i leave at the middle of the year (or at least that’s how i felt).

April
-my April will much be the same as my March until the last week.
-was hired to a piano studio to teach voice and piano.
-during the last week of that month, i received an email and a text message asking if i would like to work in de la Salle- College of st. Benilde which is a very prominent school, and in UP college of music extension program. Both of these are my dream work places aside from Febias College of Bible where i was teaching since last year.

May
i got all those jobs. My self esteem was boosted again.

June
-shuffling 4 jobs and a couple of projects at the side ain’t easy. But it certainly is a blessing.
-my friends start teasing me of getting married with my girlfriend because of all the work i have

July
-was surprised to receive an email inviting me to perform in Malaysia.

August
-probably the busiest month of my year.
-international silent film festival
-and a couple more events that needed some new works. This month i pushed myself to the limit and wrote 1 piece of new music a week.

September
-my birthday month
-spill over of work from August

October
-went to Malaysia for the sound bridge music festival
-after the last concert, went straight home for ara’s special project with my piece also to be performed. That weekend was one for the books. No sleep, but had 2 works premiered on just one weekend.
-ara graduated with honors. Super proud of her.

November
-started with maybe my biggest project ever. I had to do arrangements for a theatre production on December. That’s 16 songs in 3 weeks.

December
-i joined a jingle writing contest for the Philippine dental association, and surprisingly won the thing with a jingle i did in just 6 hours (all arrangement and recording and mixing and all)
-blessed to have a lot of work which made it a very merry Christmas for me. Hehe

Next year, great things are already lined up for me. I am excited, yet anxious of those things that i have no assurance of. But looking back this year, i think i dont have any reason to be afraid of the coming year. He has it all planned out already 🙂

Merry Christmas and a blessed and exciting new year to you!

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Life thoughts: life thoughts

I am a dreamer. As much as I ask God for His plans for my life, I tend to freely dream on my own and consider possibilities of an ideal life that I’d like to have.

This week, someone I knew died. She died of a sickness that could have been treated if she wanted but she focused on working and fulfilling her life-long dreams of an ideal jazz music scene here in the country.

I’ve started working with Tess salientes this year. An outstanding performer and a great imaginary, she thought of things that were innovative to the jazz music scene. I was waiting for songs from her this week when I discovered her early and sudden passing. I still have our last sms conversation and I still remember what we talked about when she called me for this project we were supposed to have.

I am a dreamer
This made me realize that how great a visionary one could be, that vision is still bound by life itself. Life is definitely short. Short enough that in one minute I can think about how I can be rich and in the next, think about how I can try to cheat death to continue on dreaming about my ideal life.

But is it ideal enough to cheat death or have a vision? What is that life that is ideal?

His ways are not mine
We do not hold the future. Someone as fulfilled as Tess could be, can succumb to life’s end just in a matter of days.

If i am a dreamer, then what am i dreaming of? Am i to spend it dreaming about life or forever dream about the ideal life, which the Bible says is in heaven?

Life is too short to not live it right, to not live it for God who gave us the idea of an ideal life which is in Him, which is for Him.

I am a dreamer and I dream that my life be for Him.

My condolences to the family and friends of Tess Salientes, a woman of talent and vision.

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Life thoughts: obedience

Obedience is a word that is opted not to be heard by people who are trying to run their own lives in their own ways. Therefore, obedience is something not of our own human understanding.

Sometimes we think it’s better to control or own lives based on being free from the boundaries and guidance already set for us by our parents, bosses and the Bible. But it was never designed to be that way. Obedience is saying “I surrender the control of my life to you. You know better.”

There are also times when we tend to bend certain rules, try to reinterpret the Bible to work our way. But since the Bible is constant and never changing, there is no reason to do that, but to obey.

There will also be times when we know that we should obey, we know what to do, we know we’re wrong, we say we’ll obey, but still we delay. If we delay our obedience, we tend to lose our focus on the proper way to do it and tend to work it out the way we like it and try to bend the rules again causing us ultimately not to obey.

 

But why should we really obey?

When Joshua obeyed, they discovered things that they cannot do on their own. They realized that God’s way is not their way and that the power of God is manifested in total obedience.

When Abraham obeyed and left his comfort zone, even though he did not understand, he became the father of Israel and became, for me, the utmost example of living by faith and not by sight.

When Moses obeyed God and spoke to the Pharoah, he paved the way for the freedom of his people under slavery, basically making him the nation’s hero.

 

And what happens when we disobey?

When Jonah disobeyed, God made a fish swallow him, and at the end made him obey Him still.

When David disobeyed and bore a child in sin with Batsheeba, God took their child away. David returned back to the Lord and have them Solomon.

When Achan disobeyed God’s commands not to take anything from Jericho, God killed him, his family, and all his livestock and thus bringing the wandering Israelits back on their feet and showing them what God does to those who disobeys him.

So, even though it is something that is difficult for us to do, something we think we can live without doing, something we think can change or everyday habit…. OBEY now. Because even if we disobey, God will still cause us to obey Him. The difference is, there will always be a consequence. So better yet, obey now.

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Life thoughts: is a blessing a blessing?

I’ve got a lot going on for me now. I’m still actually in disbelief of the things that has happened just within the past 3 weeks. Of course I thank God for all of them.

But I was thinking, is a blessing still considered a blessing even if you never prayed for it specifically, never even imagined to happen as soon as now?

People keep on asking me if I am happy with all the things happening. I just tell them that, yeah, I’ve been dreaming about all of these but not now.

I am now working with my 3 dream institutions that I was really dreaming to work for. And now that I am working for them I just can’t understand why. Why now?

Of course it is a blessing for all of them bring money and satisfaction but I was thinking that indeed His ways are different than ours. I still don’t understand a single thing
I still don’t see what’s coming. I’m just happy that I’m doing something, something truly worthwhile.

Every blessing is still a blessing, even if I think the timing is not what I thought it would be, His timing is always perfect.

I wonder what’s next. 🙂

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Life thoughts: a change of perspective

I’ve learned something very valuable and life changing. It is a change in perspective that made me rely on God more and less of myself.

It’s called seizing the day. Carpe Diem.

I’ve learned that planning the next 5 or so years of my life will only bring the utmost frustration and disappointment in me once a plan doesn’t push through.

I am the type of person who’s like that. I plan everything up to the most minute detail possible. And I’ve experienced just recently that I tend to shut off and be in a state of panic once something goes awry.

Then I thought and with all of God’s reminders that I should trust Him because He has a plan. If He has a plan, why should I plan the next 5 or so years? I should just ask Him what His plan for me is and work it out. That means that I don’t need to plan anything because everything is already laid out for me.

I’m sure i know this but never knew what it meant and how it meant for me. God has His ways of showing me what i should do, sometimes the harder way.

I would think that this change in perspective would let me communicate with my God more and accept what life’s rejections and acceptance would give me.

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Life thoughts: where does this road end?

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about my plans, and i have much that i want to do with it.

Just finished a semester of teaching in a bible college where students study to be church musicians. I have to say that it taught me a lot and i had a lot of fun. But then here comes the reality: for a couple of months now, I’ve been waiting for something that would change my life forever. Something that I’ve always wanted since i was a kid. And still i am waiting.

Everything is hanging on the balance for me. It’s as if my life is put on hold until i find out what God really wants to happen for the next couple of years.

If plan a doesn’t work there’s always plan b.

Plan b? Never even thought of plan b. Well, i have but not concretely. I am really wanting to wait on plan a’s result before having concretely planning what my plan b would be. And i am constantly bothered by other people asking me what the status of plan a is. Couldn’t tell them anything but this: i don’t know what God’s plan is but i am certainly kneeling everyday for it.”

And then i read the book of Ecclesiastes. God told me that nothing on earth really matters, nothing! We are just a vapor on the wind. We can die in a second with nothing to be brought with us when we die. So what is the point in all of this?

He said that, yeah, life is short. And truly it is so short not to do anything with it. The book also said that do everything while i am young because it will all be hard for me to achieve my dreams when i am weak, feeble and old.

For weeks this was what God told me and i am still to wait upon His answers to my prayers. Yes, i do feel discouraged and sad but I will always remember that long wait that he allowed me to have years ago. It will be worth it!